Screw u

Shut the hell up la
Bloody asshole, you freaking chose this screwed up life
Stop lamenting and moaning about
your mistakes
And blaming things on me
I've hated you for a lifetime because ur a selfish little shit
I made one mistake and am doing what i can to mend it
Go and be with your righteous and holier than thou family if u cant stand me la.
Gawsh stop complaining and leave if you want to.
Childish.

Rainbows and butterflies? I think not

I've realised its always easier to laugh about everything and everyone rather than come clean about myself. Its easier to be seen as the clown, the joker, and even though i am, there is always this part of me that so few know and that i dont want anyone to know about. Makes me wonder why its so hard to be a transparent kinda person... I guess we all just dont wanna come across as vulnerable.
But to the people that are truly themselves all the time, I have the ultimate respect for you people.

Really kinda sorta don't have a liking for your selfish behavior. Always gotta
play according to your cards. Your bloody moods and what you wanna do. All plans are ruined cos you Suddenly feel 'tired' and all that crap. Seriously, dont bother coming anymore then...

Seriously stop shouting at me.
Not your dog today or tomorrow.
Never was.

Change is near

Been struggling with authority as of late.
I know most of the time when im put in a knotty situation, i tend to lose it.
All my senses fade away and one particular trait unravels itself. I always feel like freakin Medusa when i get this angry/upset when I'm wrongly accused of something. I mean it gets really bad and i always ask myself why did i allow that to happen ah. I mean there was no point in it at all. Im like a volcano constantly being provoked until i finally erupt. HAHAHA quite funny though.
Anyway need to learn to respect authority. And just obey and do what i need to do and shut my big mouth. AMEN.

2 weeks notice

2 weeks have been great :)

From Rina's birthday celebration. chuckiechuckiechuckie. To slacking on a tuesday afternoon and waking up at 4pm. To meeting my buds to eat sushi again... (i think this is a phase for me) and playing freaking competitive taboo w huiz lala yas natasha. & working with Mel while falling asleep and having crazy customers that keep shouting and NIHAO-ing all the time cause i dunno how to speak Chinese. Nico's party which was drama filled and funny for Jasm and I who were sane during the whole thing. To Friday Morning Popeye's at Terminal 3 and nico coming over and me falling asleep and scaring her again.. To cell and the constant feeling of wanting to fall asleep. To a sermon on an early Sunday mornin that taught me many things and to routine Sunday lunches and going home to nap before the reunion dinner. And feeling weird at the dinner table when they talked about school. To collecting angbaos and later having a great conversation with the adults.To waking up the next day forgetting abt the cycling plans w JonJeevAnandJud :( But eventually watching Journey 2: Mysterious Island @ night on Prav's birthday!! And promising myself to never sit next to Jeev in the cinema ever again

Sleeping in on a Tuesday and eating pizza that brother bought for me for breakfast!

meeting Zy to finish Mel's present and talking for forever and waking up early on a Wednesday morning to tie all loose ends and eventually celebrating Mel's bday which was super successful and bloody fun!!

Looking forward to secret mission later in the day and work again ( last day?)

Excited for Friday too cos hotels are always full of surprises and fun!

So yes i know i just listed out my whole last 2 weeks of holidays, not doing it to show off or anything. Im not some popular girl... im damn loser, just ask nico.

Anyway what I'm trying to say is that these two weeks have treated me well. Not such a bad way to spend last days of freedom. Felt like I did some worthwhile things and all.

So yup. Clap hands.

Only that I haven't seen glad or jy lately. Schedule damn conflicting w these clowns.

Also momma is on MC for 2 days :)

So this means i might have quality breakfasts for 2 days!!!