cheap talk

Was gonna type things about the new year, school, results, jobs and all.

but im scraping that idea.

Instead, i will ramble and rant, cause thats what i know how to do well (sorta)

The past few days and 2 weeks have been enjoyable. laughed a lot, enjoyed a lot, reconciled ALOT.

But every night when i go to sleep, i wish that i fall asleep immediately because if i don't, every stupid lonely feeling creeps slowly into me.

I hate that.

Have been stoning more often but actually, i don't really stone. I'm just thinking really hard.

Cause i guess there is a lot to think about. But if someone asks i'll just say I'm stoning or i'm tired.

Typical.

Everyone else has someone else.

one of the things i remember most is getting to go out w minying and spending extra time w this goober.

I really feel there is some sort of reconnection in this friendship.

Someone who accepts me for who I am.

And for that I'm grateful to you Minpig.

There is a part of me that is over thinking everything. Am i blind? Foolish?

I don't know. I thought I accepted the truth a long time ago.

But still when i see these things in action.

It still hurts and i have to look away.

I don't understand why this is so,

Since what was once there isn't anymore.

I really can't bare to look or be around this.

But all these new truths keep overwhelming me.

cheap talk

hope i can keep the promise i made during thanksgiving and try to read the bible everyday